This month has been a whirlwind for me. I burst into April joining the Becoming Press team (or making it a team I should say), celebrating Easter and my birthday all before leaving for a small spring break adventure. As I am trying to reconfigure my routine and plug in new responsibilities tied to this new venture, I began to self doubt.
What if I took on too much?
What if this doesn’t pan out like I hope it does?
What if we don’t grow like I want to?
And a dozen other defeating thoughts. Honestly, I am confident that even if this doesn’t pan out like I thought it would, God will use it. He is an expert at making the best use of previous experiences. When I started confronting the lies and negative talk going on in my head, I realized it had more to do with others’ perception than my own true concerns. I started realizing that I am more concerned with others thinking I took on too much and others determining that this is a failure or a bad move.
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
Do not answer a fool according to his folly, or you yourself will be just like him.
That is exactly what you should do in this situation. Laugh! The lies floating around in my head about what others (who are not even real) think does not deserve the courtesy of my formal rationalization of why I’m going after this dream. They are meant to ensnare me to stay put. My God has invited me on an adventure and he is giving me the confidence to walk boldly in the direction of my dreams. He has brought my life in direct connection with Heather’s and he has a purpose and plan even beyond what has already taken place. The others can go bother someone else.
Because why not? Why won’t this work? Why is it crazy to open your bible to Ephesians 3:20 and declare that our God is able to do above and beyond all that we could think or imagine? I refuse to believe that passage isn’t relevant today and every day. I also am not so naive think that the prediction I have in my head–be it good or bad–is the actual outcome we will experience. I do know that my Father gives good gifts. I know that he intends all of the things I go through for good. I may not see it now or feel it in full, but one day I will know in full what I only know in part. I will be refined and blessed in this journey to start working at a little publishing company with big dreams.
We are pursuing a desire that is in both of our hearts to bless and encourage others with our words and the words of our future authors. May God see the desire and nurture it. May he bring us in contact with the right people who share our vision and have something to add. May he grow us deeper in HIS love and the love he has for all of us throughout this process. May he be elevated in all we do!